I've been walking the halls of middle schools for three weeks now, and I caught myself having a minor identity crisis this morning. Today is my 7th day in the same school and I've gotten to know a couple of the teachers and recognize quite a few of the students. As I walked upstairs to let teachers know which students I'd be testing, I caught myself thinking as if I were a faculty member here! It was so easy to do. I had a momentary glimpse of how I might feel next year, followed by an ever-so-brief moment of sadness. I guess it just illustrates how ready I am to be teaching.
Then I got thinking...I'm so lucky! I truly am. I have the next three months to just get ready for our new baby boy, then the following seven months to enjoy doing what I love the most - staying at home with the baby, and spending the summer with our three boys (I love how that sounds!). While I know that returning to work and leaving a seven month-old baby will not be easy for me, I will be going to do something I love; something about which I feel passionate, and something that will allow me to touch lives. Does it get any better than that? It's kind of like having Christmas every single day until your birthday. And actually, it's not luck. This is what it is to feel truly blessed.
I am so grateful to God for changing my heart, time after time; putting me right where I know He wants me to be. He never fails to bring my heart to where it needs to be as well, He just waits patiently while I slowly release the death grip that I have on my plans.
1 comment:
Jen! How did you change the width of your blog? I want to do that!!
Also, I think it is hysterical that you were mistaken for an 8th grader. That happened to me in the first 3 years of teaching, but I don't think I'd get that compliment now!
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